I often end up becoming a night person. I like to sleep in. I like to stay up late. proper sleep is important. Often I feel most like myself, most alive past midnight. thats when I feel like its time to be active and to live. It feels horrible to force myself to sleep when I get that feeling. I don't ever want to sleeping pills to force myself to sleep. I like being able to video chat with people on the other side of the world in Australia and feel like a normal person.
I biked to Oakville its a long bike ride but I don't feel like the bike ride hasn't begun until an hour deep. When you forget you have legs when you start to think you have wheels for legs. Thinking about the up rotation, the down rotation. Balancing the toe pull back with hamstring pull down motion when pedaling. When the mind shifts from everything else to focus solely one the most efficent way to pedal to minimize the burn that starts building up in the hamstrings. At first thats all you know; Pedaling, by pushing down. Once you realize the micro changes you can make to optimize your biking its like realizing you have a second pair of lungs. (birds have a second pair of vocal chords).(cows have multiple stomachs [mooing like a cow is great you should try it, the M and N sounds resonate in your head the most MM MMMmmm, helps strengthen your vocal chords and find the resonance]).
When people gamble sometimes they say "the house wins". I remember I was working with this guy who said every day you wake up, just getting out of bed it costs you 20 dollars once you leave your house.
Every time you give in to the temptation to eat out or impulse pay for conveniences its like you gambled on yourself and lost. The house wins.
One time I worked with this company and the boss guy would take a whole loaf of bread and make peanut butter sandwitches with it and eat it all week and bring us sandwiches. (and he put it down on site and some guy stole the bag). At first I thought it was kind of hardcore but its really what you need to do if your out working to make money.
I Liked temping because I would always be working in new parts of the city and I would eat out in a new restaurant for lunch. at the time to me it was worth it but yeah the $ adds up. Working with the peanut butter guy taught me the importance of packing a lunch.
When I went on my long bike ride I didn't eat much all day, I was eying this shawarma place but it pissed me off it was self checkout and it said they only take credit, left that for wendys and it was closed drive through and skip only. Nothing else was open in oakville. I felt like I was so smart biking down because last time I was at the mercy of the go train, the time before that I tried taking the bus + train combo in winter and it pissed me off so much for how long it took and cost. Thought I was beating the system by biking but forgot that everything closes so early in oakville. I refused to be defeated by oakville. The house will not win.
Feasted when I got home and slept all day. I needed to do that bike ride. A short bike ride just wouldn't do it. I can't sit infront of computers for hours and think properly. Blood needs to flow. I want to make music, music needs to be made with people. The best thing i can do alone is practise the skills but its not the same as the real thing. The real thing involves going out into the world. I can't properly sleep if I dont get enough exercise. It usually isnt enough to binge watch and binge eat till passing out. Some people do it, some people reccomend it. I don't like it. To me what I find the most fullfilling is getting enough activity in during the waking hours to be drained.
I remember seeing something somewhere about your body getting used to burning calories if you are very active when your younger your body doesn't adapt as well to a sedentary life, you kind of get physically addicted to it. My personal experience from working labour jobs and biking alot, it was a grind but I slept pretty well, whereas other times when I sat around alot on computers usually find it harder to sleep.
With that in mind, to me I feel like its not just me wanting to do a bike ride but I need to do it so I can properly experience the next day.
Looking back on it. It felt amazing. It rained the day after and I slept all day. I ran out of my lavazza 5/10 intensity coffee. excited to finally try the Balzacs coffee I got a while back from my birthday. Im thankfull I got to sleep so much and recover and then later into the night enjoy a cup of coffee after feasting. a couple days ago i was getting up around 1. when its cloudy and rainy I dont see much point waking up.
Im glad I got out when I did for that bike ride. Im glad I got to get out and get as much sun as I did early in the week.
3:00 p.m. rise
3:05 Chivas Regal with the morning papers, Dunhills
3:45 cocaine
3:50 another glass of Chivas, Dunhill
4:05 first cup of coffee, Dunhill
4:15 cocaine
4:16 orange juice, Dunhill
4:30 cocaine
4:54 cocaine
5:05 cocaine
5:11 coffee, Dunhills
5:30 more ice in the Chivas
5:45 cocaine, etc., etc.
6:00 grass to take the edge off the day
7:05 Woody Creek Tavern for lunch-Heineken, two margaritas, coleslaw, a taco salad, a double order of fried onion rings, carrot cake, ice cream, a bean fritter, Dunhills, another Heineken, cocaine, and for the ride home, a snow cone (a glass of shredded ice over which is poured three or four jiggers of Chivas)
9:00 starts snorting cocaine seriously
10:00 drops acid
11:00 Chartreuse, cocaine, grass
11:30 cocaine, etc, etc.
12:00 midnight, Hunter S. Thompson is ready to write
12:05-6:00 a.m. Chartreuse, cocaine, grass, Chivas, coffee, Heineken, clove cigarettes, grapefruit, Dunhills, orange juice, gin, continuous pornographic movies.
6:00 the hot tub-champagne, Dove Bars, fettuccine Alfredo
8:00 Halcyon
8:20 sleep
I like how he would wake up at 3pm. I too like to eat grapefruits.
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